Hummingbird
Only you can catch my eye,
the desire to roam no longer there.
You have my heart now and forever.
My devotion is to you alone.
My past is full of lusty thoughts
of women who cross my path.
Even a simple attraction
is enough for a second glance.
Content to love just one
was never quite in me.
I always hoped the next one
would forever change my mind.
My search was always with me
It must be who I am.
Looking for the woman
to make me fully man.
My passion runs deep
but deeply hidden
it had to escape or die.
It’s part of me set aside to bloom
for the hummingbird
that on my nectar would survive.
Sweet passion now flows
both deep and wide.
I found you lover
and let you inside.
Forever I’m yours destined to be,
forever joyful at you and me.
This is the poem where Scott is most candid about who he was before Priya. He does not minimize his past or ask for easy grace. He names the restlessness plainly — a man who kept searching because he could not stop — and then traces how that same deep passion, redirected, became the very thing that makes his love for Priya complete. It is the turning point of the collection.
I want Priya to understand where I came from so she can fully appreciate where I am. I was not a man who found it easy to be devoted to one woman. I was always looking. Writing this poem was my way of telling her that the looking is over — not because I forced it to stop, but because she is what I was looking for. The hummingbird image came to me naturally. She is the flower I was always searching for without knowing its name.